not feeling the stress yet...though so many events will be going on from this weekend onwards...hope i won't be too screwed up...=p
was thinking a lot about my myself and my character these days...when did i start mouthing not nice things about people in front of others...i may not hve noticed it...but i hve since ''evolved'' and was being more vocal ...than before...and ...showing more of my inner feelings?! after hving a serious thought abt what changed my self...i guess it was partly due to the environment i am in...a poly...thats develops us for a working world...maybe i'll hve 'school gap' with my jc peers...but i really hope i hve not changed too much that even i can't even recognised...=p
nicole says...i'm still myself...not all changes are bad...and that the old hui min is still hui min...except that the fact she wanted some changes...
yes...i used to think i was an ugly duckling and always wondered when i will ever be a swan...
i hve refused to look into mirrors in the past as i was afraid of how others will actually judge me...that was why i can face my mirror at home but not the mirrors outside...
for now...ever since the ' big evolution'...e.g. wearing short skirt, cutting and letting down my hair(cause i was too lazy to tie it ;)) and smiling to myself while looking into the mirrors outside directly...blogging about myself.....but nonetheless i still find myself being very serious abt almost everything except during times when i cracked lame jokes...^^i realised i was more willing to accept changes now...then before...it seems to make me and my mind more flexible...but one thing i'm still wondering is whether i was as kind and compassionate to to other people as before...i hve stopped donating to street artistes...is that because i was so used to hving them around that i choose to ignore their presence ? even if they really needed help? or was i more concern abt my own welfare to care for others?
i was always wondering why andrew is so different from the other boys in my class...i finally realised why one day...after a conversation with sihui...it is because he has a vast amount of self-confidence...something i didn't possess in myself...and was very much lacking in...
after all this days in school....i hope i'm on my way to maturity...and to gaining self-confidence...but i hope i won't be hindered on my way...
thanks so much ...my friends for accepting this new side of me....=) please warn me if i'm getting too overboard...or too self obsessed...
-what is ur favourite colour?
